We’ve been talking for a little bit more than 2 weeks now. Uhh, well it doesn’t mean anything but I just got excited, haha. I never thought that he would stick for this long.
We’ve been talking for a little bit more than 2 weeks now. Uhh, well it doesn’t mean anything but I just got excited, haha. I never thought that he would stick for this long.
I think one of my friends saw my cuts on my wrist today. I sat next to her to ask her how to sign somethings(Sign Language) and when I looked at her while signing I saw her look at my wrists and she seemed distracted for a quick second, so I’m pretty sure she did see them. I’m wearing bracelets but I don’t think enough of them. Fuck. There’s only one person that knows that I’ve been doing this, I just really hope she doesn’t tell anyone. Maybe I shouldn’t just tell her after I do it and just see if she notices when I see her. And then if she does then I’ll tell her, but if not I won’t bring it up. Considering there’s no relevancy since she lacks the knowledge to understand why am doing it in the first place.
So from cutting on my hip for 3 days (yesterday, day before and the day before that) in a row, it burns so much. When I pull down my underwear, it burns. When I lay on my right side which is where I cut, it burns.
I tried cutting on my hip yesterday because I’m getting paranoid about my wrist.
So, I cut on my right hip yesterday and today.
My underwear covers it(: perfect.
The pain is what I kind of learned to like and almost enjoy, just almost.
He plans not to “drop” any communication with anyone when he leaves to Air Force. He said that he would write to me when he is in BMT. And he doesn’t find a reason not to. Also, I was wondering how that would work since my parents know nothing of him, but he said just to say it’s a penpal thing I’m doing at school(:
I was so worried of losing contact with him once he leaves, I mean it’s a common thing to think of considering I’m not one of his close friends or anything, but you know what? Now I’m not so worried, since he made me feel better about it and that he’s going to get his phone back after BMT anyway. At least there’s still going to be some communication still going on. Yay!
